*Autobots, roll out!*

Merry Christmas everyone!

I always adore Christmas decorations.
It's just lovely.
The Christmas tree & its decorations. The gingerbread man. The candy cane. The snow flakes.
I swear if I ever experience a white Christmas, I'm gonna cry like hell. Because it's just so beautiful.
It's not that I prefer Christmas over Hari Raya but I can only see green for Hari Raya decorations. And Christmas is all colourful. And I love that.

Anyway, my daddy has made it a yearly vacation to visit KL every Christmas because of the decorations. He says every year that it reminds him of the Christmas-es he experienced back in Scotland when he was studying.
I wish the government would convert all the money my daddy paid for income tax yearly into my PhD scholarship in UK. Darn!
I always wonder what happen to the money. Maybe to pay for the ministers' luxurious cars or the enormous mansions on top of the hill.
Well, I said 'maybe'.

And so we stayed in KL on Christmas weekend and went to KLCC, Sogo, Midvalley and around KL. Just eating, window shopping (I swear I only window shopped! No shoes, bags or clothes!), making fool of ourselves in Toys R Us where we end up buying Twister! Seriously, playing Twister in hotel room was definitely a mess! First the space is so tiny. Second, you're going to laugh and scream at the top of your lung like nobody cares. Not good.
I believe there's always a little child trapped in my body. *wink*
And I can't believe I'm quite flexible. haha..

*bewitching ya!*

*something I would beg my daddy to buy me if I were 8!*

Anyway, happy holidays everyone. New year is coming up.
Cherish & appreciate your loved ones.
And your time left on this earth.
Cheers!

-qils-

Ulcers. Flu. Cough. And all of the horrible things.

I haven't been feeling well since 2 days ago.
Started with terrible bunch of red-skin-flaring ulcers inside my mouth. One situated very near to my anak tekak so everytime I wanna gulp down even plain water, I feel absolute pain.
And then came Mr. Flu.
With his partner in crime, Mrs. Cough.
And Mrs. Cough' long lost kitten, Phlegm. Who is always eager to get out from my throat. But seems like Mrs. Cough doesn't allow it to be free yet.
Or maybe Mrs. Cough just wants to grow old with her kitten and become the old nasty lady with a fat cat on her lap, sitting on a vintage rocking chair.
And oh, I haven't mention the worse.
Sir Fever.
Oh yes. The Great Sir Fever. Not only my body temperature shoots up everytime he's here but he also brings along some of his butlers. Mr. Headache & Mr. Nausea.
They should be Siamese twins since they are always together. Much like boots & blisters. Or IKEA's meatballs & that berry jam.
Anyway, for two days I feel like throwing up and I couldn't stand still without feeling like my shoe rack is spinning. Suddenly I'm Alice in Wonderland.

So far I've gulped down a dozen of Febricol for my flu and fever and litres of plain water. I dare not drink anything cold. Or eat anything too spicy.
And my family and close-knit friends are aware of my love for spicy food. I would usually eat up spicy food when I get attacked with flu to help getting rid of the mucus, but this time, I don't think my ulcers would be please with the idea.

I think it must have something to do with my frequent low blood pressure. Yup, I have it. But everytime I visit the blood centre for blood check up, the pressure will go straight up!
Could be because of the nervousness upon seeing the terribly thick needle to extract my blood from my fair flesh.
Well, not like I have never donated blood before.
Once.
Still, better than nothing.

Well, I think it's time for this patience patient to take up her pills.
And pray that Mr. Flu, Mrs. Cough, Phlegm the Kitten, Sir Fever, Mr. Headache and Mr. Nausea will find their way home.
Macam rombongan Cik Kiah la pulak...

-qils-

It's a Gloomy Day

It's been raining since 11am this morning.
Now it's about 3.45pm.
Non-stop raining.
I feel like sleeping.

I went to JJ the other day with my mommy.
And I tried on this gorgeous wedges that I saw in Vincci.
As I said before, I'm not really a fan of wedges but the thing is, I've got RM30 voucher from Padini Membership which would expired by this year (which is a couple more days to go) so I decided to buy the wedges.
Turn out, I left the voucher in Shah Alam when I was "spring cleaning" my LC purse.
Nasib baik la belum nak bayar lagi, if not I've to fork out extra on that.
Aiyoh!

Oh yes btw, The e-Beautique will be joining another bazaar!
I'm so excited!
This time it'll be at Asia Cafe again. We had a bazaar there once and the crowd was awesome! I hope it's bigger this time! And I hope to sell more stuff! =)
I've to admit this is what I love doing most! Apart from becoming a paid traveller, I think fashion business may be something I'll venture seriously. It's so relaxing. You get to meet more people. You get to see inspiration from all the fashionistas who turn up. And everyone is putting on happy faces! Smiles are so infectious!

Honestly, I'm so blessed to have something I can do instead of thinking what went wrong.
Well, at least I'm still acting as myself and not suddenly turning to be another person.
No offence to anyone. Just a thought.

I'm blessed.
And I'm ever so ready to fall again.
It's just unbelievable how life treats you, you know.
We may be all nice and people just, well, take it as a moment.
And when that moment is gone, they simply leave.
Hahaha..
Before this I would give a long sigh.
Now I would just take a deep breath and as I breathe out, all the freaking damn thing leaves my body and mind as well.
Sangat lega. Macam makan McFlurry. =P

Remember the phrase "love is blind"?
It's so true! Well, only at this moment that I realised it's so true.
Still, at least I did.
But I think when people are in love, they sort of blinded themselves.

*Tiba2 malas lah mahu berbicara lagi. Sejuk2 mcm ni minum hot tea dengan biskut marie lagi best.*

-qils-

Thought of the Day

Don't let someone become a priority in your life,
when you are just an option in their life.

*Never thought selfishness can eat people alive. Well, it's their life anyway. When you're mad, it's easy to pursue the anger. But when you're disappointed, it's more heartbreaking because you give in your faith. Sadly, they themselves have no faith in their life. Thus, appreciation is just not in their life dictionary. Period. *

*And the price to pay for disappointment? 3 bloody pairs of stilettos! Damn.*

-qils-

Shoe Fetish

If there's one thing I can never have enough, it would definitely be shoes.

I think it all started when I was in 13 years old.
I was in Form 1 in SMK Munshi Abdullah and I bought my first baby blue wedges from Vincci.
God I loved that wedges so much.
So basically I learnt stability of wearing heels from my first wedges.
Then I bought few more wedges and kitten heels from Vincci.

Before I got my first 4-inch nude strappy stilettos from Sembonia.
It was GORGEOUS.
I adored it. No. I worshiped it.
I wore it practically everywhere. Even to JJ just to buy groceries.
Not to mention it was quite comfortable.
I had it until I was in Form 3 or 4.
Oh yes, I nurse my shoes. Literally.
I wipe them after wearing it. Put them back in their box.
So that's how my shoes can last up to 2, 3 years.
I can tell if someone has worn my shoes secretly.
Mmhmm, I'm nuts.

I practically wear heels everytime I go out.
I practically make heels practical to wear.
And I don't lie everytime I say flip-flops give me blisters at my soles and toenails.

But anyway, I have 2 Ipanema flip-flops, 2 Prima and Malindi from Crocs and a pair of flat gladiators at the moment.
So it's not that I totally ditch flats.
I don't loathe flats.
I just love stilettos too much.
Unconditionally.

*Tanja S London*

Oh my.
This is so goddess-tic.
I'm not a fan of wedges anymore but this basically made my jaw dropped.

*Shankara by OrangeLittle*

I've always wanted to wear booties.
It's so in the season right now!
So many to choose from!
But I don't think it's practical in our humid weather.
Gorgeous. Gorgeous.

p/s- I bought 3 shoes online today. Will upload pics once they arrive. Burnt my purse a bit but totally worth it. *wink*

-qils-

Q.I.L.A.H

Like I said, I express myself better when I write.
Because I have the freedom to use whatever existed words.

Questrist -A seeker, a pursuer.
Intelligent -I am.
Lydine -A violet dye from aniline. I'm a purple fan now. Oh, do you know purple is the most expensive colour since Cleopatra era? Only she could wear purple.
Achilles -I have a weak spot as well, just like him. Only instead of the ankle, it's my fragile heart.
Hypnotized -I can be easily hypnotized. Seriously. With fabulous shoes. Gorgeous people. Babies.

Sebenarnya kebosanan.
*sigh*

-qils-

Life oh Life

"So after all is said and done
I know I'm not the only one
Life indeed can be fun, if you really want to

Sometimes living out your dreams,
Ain't as easy as it seems
You wanna fly around the world,
In a beautiful balloon"

Life by Desree

A beautiful song by a legend, Desree.
Life is short.
Oh yeah, I've been hearing that for millions of times but I haven't paid that much attention either. I mean, I know life is short but we keep make the same mistakes over and over again.

Well, I was young and stupid.
So sue me.

I'll be turning 25 next year. Goodness sake, that's a quarter of a decade already!
And what have I achieved all these years?
A degree. Probably Masters by next year (InsyaAllah). And yeah, that's about it.
Sheesh..
Some people are already millionaires at this age.
(Talking about Irfan Khairi that my baby sis, Amy, been drooling over)

Jika saya seorang jutawan,
saya akan send my parents to perform Haj and all over the world. Both my parents need a break from us, their children. I know we are their world (we are very spoilt, and I'm OK with that) but they have sacrificed so many things they deserve anything they want in this world.
Kemudian saya akan membeli-belah sepuas2 hati saya. Who doesn't love shopping? I want that MBMJ I've been wanting since last year. And a pair of CL red sole pumps. And Nokia N97 in white. And to revamp Betty (my beloved car) with leather seats, a bit of skirting here and there and change the useless Clarion stereo.
Saya juga akan melancong ke serata dunia. I don't really like road trip, because I think it's a waste of time. If I can get a private jet, I'll fly directly to anywhere I want. I've always loved Ireland. It's so breathtaking and I would buy a small nice cottage with beautiful big garden of colourful flowers and have some ducks around. And maybe 2 black horses. Horses are gorgeous, aren't they?
I wish. How I wish....

I wish upon a star.
And then I realised it's still daytime.
So I thank the sun.
For shining bright and making me smile.

-qils-

Clandestine?

I just love the sound of this word.

It means secret.

Well, ironically, this ain't a secret. Anyone can read this.

Sometimes I feel I express myself way better in writing. I can use all sorts of words and even vulgar words won't sound so, err, vulgar when you write it than say it.

Just a thought. A fun thought. A personal thought.
My thought.

-qils-