My Ultimate Motivation of the Week

"Malaysia International Shoe Exhibition"

2-4 April 2010
Dewan Tun Hussein Onn, PWTC

My motivation to go through Wednesday, Thursday & Friday.
I so cannot wait!!!
Come and join me on Saturday baby!

-qils-

Thoughts From Lady Gaga & Beyonce =)

Have you watched Lady Gaga's new music video for "Telephone"?
Beyonce is featured in both songs and video.
My favourite part?
Apart from her killer shoes?

Must be these lines:
B: You know Gaga, trust is like a mirror. You can't fix it if it's broken.
LG: But you can still see the crack in that motherf**ker's reflection.

Oh I love!
So true.
Once people misused the trust you put in them, it's just undone.
It's never forgotten and it haunts you forever.
More like disappointed.
You know the statement 'forgive and forget'?
I think sorry is sooooo overrated these days.
Brain is given to us by God to help us think. And to store memories.
And what makes people think the word 'sorry' can erase the memories?
It's never as simple as that.
For me it's easier to forgive than forget.
I forgive easily, means I don't feel like taking revenge or praying for karma to strike back.
That's why I find bliss in ignorance.
But I don't forget easily.
So I just turn around and take the other way, hoping it won't happen or cross-path again.
But there are people who just can't move on. They just stuck there, waiting for the situation or the past to take place again.
Funny how life treats us all, eh?
Who says life is unfair? Life is fair. God gives everyone equality in everything. It's about the choices you make. You are actually making your life unfair.
Maybe it's time to realize that people do take people for granted.
In so many ways- work, relationship, friendship.
So what should we do?
Just be 'ikhlas' in everything.
Senang je kan.
Yang lain-lain tu let the Almighty handle it His ways.
There's sunnah saying 'Doa orang teraniaya akan dimakbulkan'.
It's true but I'd rather pray for my loved ones to be blessed with all the happiness in the world.
Go figure, stop whining and just be thankful.

Born a Libra, I am said to be the most indecisive people.
*not that I really believe it*
But I know exactly what I want most in my life.
To be able to trust and be trusted.
To be able to give and appreciated.
To be able to love and be loved.
Unconditionally.

-qils-

For Your Entertainment *wink*

*pic credited to here*

Adam Lambert is in Singapore at the moment.
Not like I can go over there and watch him sing live.
Dekat tapi jauh.
hahahahahahahaha
I really adore him it's driving me crazy. And people around me as well.


*pic credited to here*

I sing 'Whataya Want From Me' all the time!
While preparing my breakfast, in shower, masa tengah jemur kain, even humming when I brush my teeth.
Totally mabuk kepayang.
Totally buang tebiat.
Please please bear with me on this one.
It's uncontrollable.

-qils-

Gorgeous-ness =)

*happened on 9Feb2010*

I have so many things to write about but have kept on delaying things.
hehe..
Duduk rumah jaga anak la kata kan =P

Anyway, I went to meet up my best friend, Wee, at One Utama.
We have planned to meet up but I'm always at Melaka and he's always busy working at The Loft.
So the week I didn't return to Melaka we decided to have dinner together to catch up.
I've known him for almost 12 years now.
We went to the same school and he lived at the same housing area so everyday we walked to school and back together.
We weren't in the same class. Well, I was smarter. haha jahat kan =P
He's a Chinese but couldn't speak Mandarin. He went to sekolah kebangsaan since primary years. And his grands were baba nyonya so that explains why he can't speak Mandarin.
At most times people thought we were brother and sister.
Duhh!



So we had dinner at a new restaurant, The Garden.
It was beautiful! Gorgeous! I love everything about it!
From the cute cook to the waiters to the piano to the songs to the food!
Eveything about this restaurant is oh so lovely!
Definitely worth trying!


*piano! flowers were everywhere!*


*the menu describes a lot about various flowers*


*beautiful set ups! i'm falling in love with the lamp post and flowers!*


*shoes: Casablanca, top: Feeling Artsy? both from The e-Beautique, black skinny from Little McQueen*


*there's a bowl of water with lemon to wash your hands before eating*

*drinks in small jugs. so cute! notice the flower for stir!*

*spaghetti carbonara for me! and pineapple fried rice for wee*

Do stop by if you happen to be finding a place to eat at OU.
Expect to spend no less than RM30 per person.
Good food. Beautiful place.
Definitely worth every penny!

*aduh lapar la pulak malam2 ni*

-qils-

The Wolfman

*watched on 18Feb2010*

Have you ever watched a movie that made you jumped off your seat?
Aside from Japanese horror movies?
I am never and will never be a fan of horror movies.
I can stand 'Texas Chainsaw Massacre', 'Saw', 'Kill Bill' and 'House of Wax' but you can never drag me into the cinema to watch horror movies. Be it Japanese, Korean, Western or even Malaysian horror movies.
The last horror movie I remembered watching without having to cover my eyes at all was 'The Blair Witch Project' because there's no 'hantu' at all! But it was creep as hell! I couldn't sleep that night. So simply imagine what will happen if I watched 'Niyang Rapik'.
I swear whoever tries to drag me to watch horror movies at cinema, I'll knock them off with my heels.
Seriously.
I don't think twice about this.



Anyway, yes, 'Wolfman' made me jump off my seat.
I am still not sure whether it's a horror or thriller movie.
It should be thriller because there's no element of ghost at all.
But the spooky-ness is just horrifying.
Five minutes it started, I shouted and grabbed my sis' hand.
It's more like terperanjat.
And the sound effect was really good, too.
I loved the era and the costume.
Man I totally dig periodical movies. The costumes just blow me away. And if you have watched many movies of this type you'll soon realize that the women all have porcelain skin.
Emily Blunt is a beauty! Oh my she's gorgoeus! And I love her accent! I love everything about her!

The effects were great, the wolfmen actually looked quite real even when they're fighting.
It's basically about Benicio Del Toro went home after his brother died to investigate his death. Then one night, while investigating, he got bitten by the warewolf.
So as legend has written, once bitten by a warewolf, you'll turn into warewolf once you see the full moon.
And he did crime, like killing people horrendously but I'm not quite sure whether he ate those people or he did it just for fun.
Turned out, the wolfman who killed his brother was actually his father, who got bitten by a warewolf when he was in India doing his research.
So Benicio was so angry, he killed his father, Anthony Hopkins.
Emily wanted to help cure Benicio but there's no hope. There's no way to make him normal again and that he should just be killed to save others.
But Emily didn't want him to die as warewolf so she risked herself by asking Benicio to recognize who she was. And then he sort of remembered but by then the policemen were coming and he became fierce again.
So Emily took his life with her own hands.
She shot him with silver bullet which the only way to kill warewolf.

*God i can't believe i can't remember any roles!*

I have been exposed with all these legends -warewolf, dracula, vampire, frankenstein -since I was young because my second brother loves reading these stuff.
Trust me when I say I watched 'Nosferatu' when I was around 12 years old. And I actually watched 'Interview With The Vampire' not because of Tom Cruise, Brad Pitt, Antonio Banderas or Christian Slater, but because of the vampires-storyline. Only years after that I thought all these guys were hotties.

Basically, it was a great movie which I enjoyed very much despite the shouting and jumping.
Anthony looked sooo like my daddy! haha
And Benicio still makes my heart go oh la la even after 20 years! Ok, maybe not 20 years but, well, you know what I mean.



I watched this before I watched Valentine's Day on the same day and I loved both movies!
Thumbs up! Including my mak jari kaki too!
*smile*

-qils-

OMG My Fav Quote Ever!!!!!

"Style is wearing an evening dress to McDonalds, wearing heels to play football. It is personality, confidence and seduction."
-John Galliano, Vogue UK

This is soooooo my favourite quote for fashion!
I always believe everyone is born with style but they just have no enough confidence to personalize it and sort of flaunt it to the world.
And style is about personality, so it is supposed to be something personal and different.

I am forever addicted to high heels (well, maybe not when I'm 90 years old) but my baby sis is not a heels-kind-girl because she's already tall (duh!). So she never wears heels and flats are her only choice.
But she always looks good in pumps or flats or sandals! Whenever I wear pumps, I feel like a 'nyonya' you know. I feel like I'm going to sell 'tempe'. I feel ugly in flats.
And at most time heels boost my confidence to the max.
I just feel sexy slipping into my Christian Louboutin inspired pumps, or I always feel the rush whenever my strappy stilettos teasing my skin everytime I take a step.
I don't expect my baby sis to feel the same by wearing heels.
Because it's not going to be the same.

Basically, what I'm saying is, it's about who you are in the end.
I used to be sneakers-kinda-girl when I was in high school, with baggy pants, oversized T-shirts and what not. But that was me trying to look like Eminem or Mike Shinoda or Nick Carter.
Now, I go crazy over heels.
My car boot is full with my heels collection.
Which I am proud of.
=D

My daddy will always go,
"You think you're Imelda Marcos?"
And I always answer,
"Almost, daddy. Almost"
With a big fat grin on my face.
=D

I just love shoes.
It's addictive.
It's crazy.
But I'm loving it!
I just love being me!

-qils-

Homesick =(

I'm back in Shah Alam.
After almost three weeks at mi casa, it was hard to leave home.
Aish was sleeping so I just gave him kisses. But he knew I was leaving because I told him yesterday I have work to do in Shah Alam.
And he said "Arini Aunty Lah teman Aish ek, esok Aunty Lah balik Shah Alam"
And this morning before I left he asked me to draw him knight.
You know, the knight in shining armour, with shield and sword and horse.
I failed my LK in SPM ok. So drawing is not my thing.
I will definitely buy some tracing paper later for him. hahaha
Oh I miss that adorable brat.
He turned 4 last 19th. So adat la semakin nakal.
I just cubit whenever he panjat2 here and there. Or when he doesn't want to take his bath. Or when he doesn't want to clear his toys away.
Well not really cubit all the time. Nanti ada yang call Tele-Dera pulak..
Usually I would just start counting and he knows by number '3' he would get my cubit.
And I cubit memang sakit punya. Real cubit ok. Not acah-acah.
So he knows it's gonna be painstakingly painful and upon hearing number '1', he would mencicit lari sampai bergoyang his cuping telinga gajah tu.
I don't do slapping. It looks harsh. Cubit I think still nampak macam main2.
He's getting so smart these days. Alhamdulillah. Healthy and smart.
I ask him the other day "Aish, Aunty Lah cantik ke comel?"
*I think we all ask kids that question. hahaha*
He said "Cantik"
Hatiku berbunga2 keriangan. Senyum sampai ke telinga. "Kenapa cantik?"
"Sebab Aunty Lah asyik pakai make-up je"
Ceettt..

A year ago everytime I asked him the same question he would answer "Tak cantik"
"Habis tu, cantik tu macam siapa Aish?"
Unfortunately, he didn't answer "Mama"
He would give the same answer every single time "Cantik tu macam Spiderman"
Duhhhhh...
Kids nowadays.
Pandai menjawab.
Oh he's so growing up fast!
So I think it's about time that my bro really settles down in Melaka for good.

At all times I wonder how these 'animals' ever have the heart to abuse children.
No matter how naughty kids are, they are kids, for goodness sake.
They have every right to be naughty and do stuff that annoys adults.

Psychotics. Idiots. Scumbags. Jackass.
Oh yes, these 'animals' deserve to be called like they should be.
Period.


*I miss my mommy and daddy. Usually at nights for the last three weeks I would watch TV with them eating countless Mandarin oranges. Priceless moment.*

-qils-

Procrastination

I hate myself whenever I procrastinate.
Like tonight, when I have assignments that I need to finish up soon.
I rarely procrastinate, you know.
But I would procrastinate on things I loathe.

*e.g. assignments*

Sometimes I rethink on the reasons of me doing my Master.
The only reason: higher post/salary.
That's it.
Not for self-satisfaction (hell, no!) or my love for studying (urgh!) or because I just love writing literature reviews.

I hate literature review. Seriously.
Article review is still fine with me but literature review is killing me!
Literally!
The agony of finding articles on the same topic (which is never easy despite the humongous size of library at the faculty), the agony to actually READ everything, the agony of choosing sub-topics and not forgetting the agony of writing the review!
Damn.
I love writing but not something on pidgin or creoles or school-based assessment!

I just want to get my Master done and work hard to earn my moolah!
And maybe buy my first Christian Louboutin -for real!
Or even go to Ireland for holidays!
Hey, I study hard, I work hard, I play hard.

Serius lah, I am getting bored of classes and assignments.
I'd rather mark 100 students' assignments than doing one.
And I'm not even working at the moment. I wonder how my friends who work and study at the same time get over the stress. And the ones with family? I salute you alls ok!

Why am I not enjoying my classes?
I'm sorry I know I'm going to be a language teacher later but I don't find it necessary to learn about creoles! Or Tok Pisin! Language teacher is not a linguist, is what I believe.
Sometimes I feel like what I'm learning since undergrad years are pointless. Like this subject CALL in my final semester, we had to create/design courseware! You know, that CD thingy that helps to learn with so much fun.
*please note the sarcasm*
For goodness sake, I'm going to be a teacher! Why the hell did I have to create a courseware??
And I am soooo buta IT ok!
It's pointless!
And the fact that my Master is 2-years long is not helping either. Tak membantu menaikkan semangat langsung. I just don't get it why it has to be that long. If my dad were a millionaire, I would definitely beg to study in UK. Duh!
I have friends who are studying in UK at the moment, they started later than me but going to finish earlier than me.
I'll never opt for loans, PTPN pun semput nak bayar nih. Cett!

You see how I chose to write this post than doing my assignments?

I don't know why I'm so bloody pissed off with the system.
PMS kut.
Tekanan perasaan.

-qils-